Overly optimistic, spoiled.. am i ? or just realistic ?

A girl came into my work way back then letting me know how terrible my old job place is and that I should be very thankful that I do not work there anymore. Although I have cracked a couple jokes that a second coming of Hitler runs the place, I see it like this.

Thankful that I was fired for an odd reason? Should I be? I don't know.

But I am thankful that how bad this economy is.. I was lucky to even land a minimum wage job. God has shown me I can do anything I put my mind to through His strength.

I told her I am grateful that I have a warm bed to sleep in at night, a warm house to go to after my hard day at work.. While there are people outside in this freezing weather.. some sleeping in their cars, some sleeping in tents.. some less fortunate and don't even have a blanket to sleep under.. it's just the side walk. So while I have this job, and warm home.. I am grateful that after I am out there working hard, I have a home and I have a job. Instead of being one of those sleeping in the streets in that weather. Instead of complaining about my job.. which is SO SO easy to do considering all those CRAPPY customers I get.. I am just SO grateful to have a job .. I can not drive yet, so I am grateful God has given me family to take me to work and pick me up when the day is done. I'm glad I have JUST ENOUGH.. not more then what i need.. not less.. JUST ENOUGH to get by.. .. And as I was telling this good friend of mine this.. She said in response.. "Wow! Heather! Your just overly optimistic. it sickens me."

And I got to thinking.. Am I optimistic? Or Am I realistic? I think I'm just being REAL here. I don't think I'm that optimistic. If something bad happens to me, I freak out and think it's all over for me. haha It's just me being real.

I'm spoiled actually. I do not have a car, I am not in college like I'd like to be, I do not have my own room and I share my bed (b/c I was supposed to be in college by now but my job and my father's fell through) .. A big family living in a small 3 bed room house and I'm spoiled. we are spoiled. We have this american Norm that you have to have your own room, your own heat settings.. w/e you name it..

I'm spoiled because I have clean water coming out of my faucet.. but we still continue to want our dasani waters.. right? While there are kids everywhere drinking muddy water. I have food in my cabinets.. and it does fit my special appetite sometimes.. but hey ITS FOOD.. like the bible says.. food is nourishment for our bodies.. While there are families out there who have no money for food .. (i know there's food stamps but not everyone qualifies) I'm spoiled because after working long hours, I can come home and actually have a bed to sleep in .. instead of being on the cold streets. I have hot coffee and a place to read my bible. Speaking of bible.. I'm spoiled because I can read my bible open out in Bernhim forest.. on my front porch, at church, and even in the comfort of my own home.. instead having to hide in a tunnel, or some under ground church.. or even having to hide my bible.. I have a whole book shelf of christian books... that i can own without worrying about being shot for it. Literally. Plus we all have our own churches that we get to attend and attend without the fear that at any moment.. Soliders could come in and kill us for this.


So I am spoiled & I'm being real. I'm not optimistic. I wish I was.